It’s a new year and the idea of a new beginning, starting anew; getting a blank slate is what gets everyone on that motivational high. Everyone gets a second chance. I love it! This is my favorite time of year. A new year to take on new challenges, learn and grow from your old mistakes, and find new reasons to stay inspired.
This year, I wanted to challenge myself to be afraid and welcome it. I believe there is a difference between being afraid and being afraid and embracing it. When people have dreams, the main reason why it doesn’t become reality is because they are afraid. This whole past year, as my blog started to become something close to that of my attaining my dreams, I couldn’t help at becoming afraid. There is a lot to blogging that I found out through the process and because of my fear of failing and not achieving my goals, I stopped. I had to take a step back, look at my future, and think about what was important to me and figure out hey, is this really what you want to do? Because the truth of the matter is, blogging isn’t as luxurious as people make it out to be. It is, like any other job, a job. And because you’re your own boss, there is that added pressure of not getting paid because if you don’t hustle for that one day or you slack off for just a second, you aren’t going to be getting that paycheck. Ah, the struggles of being independent.
So, what do you do? You know you want this but you need to completely transform your lifestyle. Your life needs to be dedicated to making your dream a reality. So you might think my method might be a little excessive but if you want to create something from nothing, it will take a lot of time. Every moment you don’t take towards making your dream a reality is a moment lost.
So, I challenged myself this year to do everything differently. Approach problems, people, work, opportunities, everything in a way that I’ve never done before. Is this going to make me successful? Who knows? But the main point of this challenge is to get different results. If something is not working, change what you’re doing. Evaluate the problem and make a change. Adjustments. This is what’s going to make your year successful. This isn’t to say that this will happen overnight but knowing what is working for you and not working for you is going to be your biggest asset, trust me. That will be the biggest lesson overall—that change isn’t something that’s going to happen overnight. You can make plans to go to gym more or eat healthier, but if you don’t actively, mentally want that change, if you don’t welcome it, it will never happen. Yes, you’ll slip couple times. That’s fine. I think there is a huge “fuck it” type attitude when it comes New Year’s resolutions after a slip up, but if you want it to become a part of your new life this year, it will take time. So, cut yourself some slack. You didn’t work out today or get all the work you had planned on doing done today—it’s okay. Don’t beat yourself up. There’s always tomorrow. If you think that way, you see that you’ll have a fresh start everyday, not just for this year but the rest of your life. The problem with New Year resolutions is that people don’t take it seriously after the first month or so because they get set in their old routine. Make a new routine. It’s going to be hard to adjust but you’ll get there. You just have to want that change.
I wanted to share these photos with you not because I think I have the best body. I actually have a lot of insecurities about my body that I was kind of scared to even go through with this photoshoot. So, what did I do? I binge-ate and drank the night before and was very close to cancelling and making some excuse to not do it. But I did it. Why? Because this is me right now. This is my progress; this is where I am in my fitness journey. Is it where I want it to be? No. But I wanted to share that you don’t have to be perfect to be happy. You don’t have to have your six-pack yet. You don’t have to be a millionaire. Life is a journey and you’ll go through many mistakes and failures but also many successes—but let me tell you friends, you have to enjoy all of it. If you keep holding onto all the failures or all the “what-ifs” in the world, you won’t have enough space in your life to move forward and upward. Every success, every slip-up, every moment is important and it’s up to you to make it a positive experience. It’s all about perspective. I specifically wanted to do this shoot to motivate myself to stay on track with my health and fitness plan that I have been on for over a month now. I can honestly tell you that I haven’t been the best with my diet and I could try harder when I work out, but it’s a complete lifestyle change for me so I know it’ll take time to get used to. I want this to be a part of my life, forever. So, I’m okay with my progress now because even though I might miss a workout or binge-eat a box of chocolates, I get back into this routine. It’s my new lifestyle. I don’t give up.
So, this is my challenge to you, friends. I want you to think about what you normally would do or how you would normally think and change it. Think about it from another perspective. Don’t think about all the doubt or negativity that didn’t get you the results you wanted last year. You also want to be afraid because that fear fuels your growth and journey towards your goals and dreams but instead of running away from the fear, embrace it. Then, make this new resolution a part of your life in every possible way. Make the change and enjoy the process. Think about how you can incorporate this new resolution into your life and make it a part of your everyday life. Because what is the point of having resolutions if they die out after 3 months? Let’s get pumped for not just this year, but every year for the rest of our lives. There is so much you can accomplish! I believe in you!
Shot by Corey Epstein.
Hair + Makeup by Anton.